Time flies when you are depressed. I cannot believe it. I never wanted to be "that" person. You know that person that cries for everything? That person that is not in control of her emotions so that folks walk on egg shells around her because you never know when she is going to snap? For appearances sake, and no doubt through the Grace of God, I am sure that I appear normal on the outside to most folks. But in the inside.... I am screaming. I am so angry that I cannot see straight and at times I swear I cannot believe I do not spontaneously combust. This emotional roller coaster that I did not set into motion has left me walking tall on the outside. But inside...when I am alone with my thoughts, when I think no one is looking, I am slumped over. I drag my feet and I am still sleep walking through life. Why am I doing this to myself? What kind of quality of life do I have if I am not healthy inside AND out?
When I feel like this my diet is also totally out of control. I have not made one green smoothie this week. Correction, I did make some smoothie but they are sitting in the fridge because I have not drank them. I have taken to drinking coffee again which I am sure has left me somewhat dehydrated. Its a wonder that I can make tears at all. Are my emotions and my diet linked? What came first, the tears or the grilled cheese with extra butter?
It occurs to me as I am typing this that our insides have two parts. One part is the physical part, our plumbing, all the stuff inside us that keeps us going. The second part is the spiritual and emotional parts of us. When I am teaching my little ones, I tell them to kiss their brains when they get an answer right or even if they did not get it right but they tried their best. What have you done to kiss your brain lately? My brain is thirsty and tired because I have not been nourishing it like I should. Our inside parts cannot function properly if we do not give them what they need. An interesting link to read is here
http://www.thethinkingbusiness.co.uk/brainfoods.htm
its all about the brain and how it functions and what is needs to function correctly.
In one of the many books that I am reading, "Walk Tall: Affirmations for People of Color" the author, Carleen Brice, states that there have been times in her life when externally she has been walking tall but internally, her spirit was drooping. Our emotional insides are made up of the things that have happened to us throughout our lives and the things that we do today that dictate our futures. Our physical insides are the same. You are what you eat. Straighten up that internal slouch, drink some water and kiss your brain!
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